Hello everyone,
My name is Star, I am 38, a single mom of four, an artist, an office manager, a HR director, and the owner of a home based business on the side. I have been a crazy smoker most of my life, smoking anywhere between 1-2 1/2 packs a day depending on the stress levels of that day. I manage everything in my world and am the go to person for hundreds of people. I will say that smoking was my only crutch for a very long time. Then I found someone as of December, who is making my life more meaningful. He is a nonsmoker but put up with my old habits for months. I wanted to quit so bad, have for well over a decade, but too many people have counted on me and well.... I loose it every singe time I tried to put them down (not to mention break apart people I care deeply for). I have tried the patch, the gum, drugs, anti depressants, anti psychotics etc... and nothing got me where I needed to be to let if go. Then a friend of mine brought up how she practically quit using vaping, and I knew if she could do it, I have a chance. With my man at my side and with the e-cigs in my hand, I have not had one smoke since 03/18/2013 2 weeks now! Every time before i would follow smokers just for a slight relief, see someone smoking and wish I was them, I wanted to quit mind you, but it was a major love hate relationship. I starting vaping 11 days, with smoking analogs. First day more analogs that vapor and as time went by more vapor than analogs. I realized that the more vapor I did, the less and less the cigarettes tasted good, or fulfilled my needs. I actually got down to 10 or less a day from the 20-50 a day I could consume (50 granted was on the worst of the years days.). Then, on 03/18/2013, I went to work with 2 cigarettes in my pack, had one on arrival, and had one at 9:30 on my break. Thought to myself that I would go pick up a pack at lunch time, but only have maybe 4 more in the whole day. Lunch time came and I didn't need them, didn't even have the want for one. I started thinking to myself, am I only smoking them now because I have them? Am I fine with just vaping. So I decided not to pick up a pack, but go back to work and see. I figured if I started going crazy, I would excuse myself and pick one up (better that than loosing it at work), but I never lost control, I never got imbalance, I never wanted another one. Granted since then I have had a few moments, those have been cured by using some strong tobacco flavors to get the smoke fix. This time, I am quit for good. 2 weeks now and counting. I don't want them anymore, nor do I like the smell, or have any envy at all to the smokers, even though that was my life since I was 19. I don't care if I am hooked on vapor or if I am not a vapor junky, as far as I am concerned, these saved my life and upgraded the quality of my life too. My boyfriend thank vapor every time I kiss him, and I thank vapor every time I do not wake him up hacking. Besides the fact that I am now the room's new air fresher. Sure beat being the bad smelling cause.
I am proud and thrilled to be a part of this blog and it provided so much help to me this past month during my newb phase!
Thank you everyone,
Star
The New Proud Vapor Junky!
Thank you all for such support and encouragement. I not only took to it, but loving every minute of it. Now I have my own gear that is my style, my favorite juices, etc.. So I have been at vaping for about a month and a half now, but boy did I research. lol Loving It!!! At least if I vape for 20 more year, I don't have to regret it like I did with Smoking. So much happier! Star