I agree with the others.
It also might be a chemical that you're lacking. We get addicted to more than just the nic when we're smoking. Also, some people need a few of the chemicals that are found in smoking that relieve depression, ADD, and so forth. With that said, you might want to look into the WTA eliquids.
So far, I've tried Aromaejuice's P-38 which is really good, and the cream brulee is nice, etc.. Some need to steep, some are fine right out of the box. http://aromaejuice.com/
Another place that is even more popular is Vapelicious, especially their RY4. But they're always out of stock on purchase day. Keep trying! (notice the spelling, it's Vapelicious with an "e")
http://vapelicious.com/
Use them only during the strong craving times, like after eating or during work breaks.
i do but not to wake up n vape. i vape whilst laying in bed to relax and drift away lol. often waking up to see my pv still in my hand or mouth! glad to hear you made it thru your horrifying ordeal!