Oh my goodness, you have no idea how reminiscent that is of me! I, too, remember times when I smoked analogs, and they didn't seem like enough, either! Sometimes, I just got to the point where I wanted to smoke more, it made me sick! I had forgotten that. Amazing. There were times I would tell a friend of mine (as we chain smoked) that they just didn't help and how I really needed to quit. My word, I'm so glad I quit. It's a good reminder that I really do not Need cigarettes.
I'm definitely ordering Bobas Bounty and a LR 306 or HH357, plus a drip tip, this week. Hopefully it'll just be a matter of filling and putting it on my provari. Hopefully I won't need connectors? I know the HH357 has a list of instructions and it'll take a few days to get it right, but I'm game.
(sorry you are going through sad times... I feel you)